"So there is resistance with making the telephone calls. Why do you believe this is happening?"I tried to provide a logical answer; fear of the unknown, fear of embarrassment, and fear of failure. As I was typing out this reply, bottled feelings began to surface.
"No one has as much power over me, as my brother does; especially after my own tendency to put him on a pedestal. I'd say he's the only person whom I feel will not accept me as is. There is a strong sense of judgement, that comes from how he speaks to me. I didn't realize this until now…"I am no longer so surprised that I was scared. Theoretically, anything I do will be criticized, regardless of whether it is right, wrong, ethical, or not.
Let me pose another question: why do I put my brother in such high regard? More importantly, how can I change the amount of power I give his ego?
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